qiyin's little world.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007--5:35:00 PMY

my xxxxx,

i really dont know how to start writing this. im not even sure you'd give a damn about it. after all these time, i never thought that we would be at this point. it sucks, but i know that we arent gonna work out alright.

do you ever know that i love you so much, it pains me.

friends always tell me, why do you have to put up with him. you definately can find someone better.
but they know the reason: my love for you was blind.

do you remember that we would always be up all night, talking till the morning light.
do you remember that we used to laugh and say, that no one would stand in our way.
now i would fall asleep in hopes of dreaming that it would be like the way it used to be.

i watched helpless as you turned away from me.
a pain so deep, i have to carry.

i remember the times i used to call you in the middle of the night crying.
and you were there to shelter my pain.

you used to say that i loved you like a child.
possessive of her own things yet innocent as could be.

i admit that im like a child.
one that needs alot of attention and love.
once, you said that it was adorable.
yet now, i guess you just find that irritating.

you couldnt even be bothered to return my smses when im sad and i need you to get over it.
just afew words will do.
but the reply i was waiting for never did came.

that hurts the most.

my feelings for you is so ever strong.
my love for you never once faded.

i think i know what's on your mind, cause you look like you've got something to say.
but i made my move first.
i saved you the trouble.
a part of me died as i made this decision.

i just wanted you to know, that my love for you cannot be described in words.
but i just couldn't make you see it after all these while.

i may not be able to say those words anymore.
but, i love you.

woah. i think i can publish a book or something already. got the inspiration from xxx. of who, i'll never say. ive been having random mood swings lately. BUT ITS NOT PMS YEAH.

hehh.

As Always, Loving and Missing You.